Breath of Heaven

So as the Christmas season approaches and the birth of my own child is drawing nearer I can't help but wonder why me? and am I ready for this?  I can only imagine what Mary was thinking as her time drew near.  Was she overwhelmed?  Did she ever feel scared?  I can't imagine what was going through her head knowing that she was about to birth the son of God.  This morning one of my favorite Christmas songs came on, one that I had forgotten about, but it really seemed to sum up everything that I have been feeling for the past few weeks as I realize the true blessing that God is about to place in my life.  I know that He has entrusted me with a precious gift and sometimes I feel truly unworthy.  I have posted the lyrics at the end of this post but if you get a chance listen to the song.  It sums up every thought I have had the past few weeks. 

Breath of Heaven (Mary's Song)

I have travelled many moonless nights

Cold and weary with a babe inside

And wonder what I've done

Holy Father you have come

And chosen me to carry your son

I am waiting in silent prayer

I am frightened by the load I bear

In a world cold as stone

Must I walk this path alone?

Be with me now

Be with me now

Breath of Heaven 

Hold me together

Be forever near me

Breath of Heaven

Breath of Heaven

Light in the darkness

Pour over me your holiness

For you are Holy

Breath of Heaven

Do you wonder

As you watch my face

If a wiser one

Should have had my place

But I offer all I am 

For the mercy of your plan

Help me be strong

Help me

Breath of Heaven

Hold me together

Be forever near me

Breath of Heaven

Ok, so I know that Mary probably had a much bigger responsibility and maybe my hormones are going a little out of whack right now.  But I know that my prayer for the next few months will be asking for a breath of heaven to hold me together and help me be strong.  Well, Thanks for letting me bear a little piece of my soul.  I guess Christmas just has that much more meaning this year.  Thank God for blessing our family with a baby. Merry Christmas everyone!